I wish we
had taken more pictures. I didn't discover until after I developed
the film that we hadn't gotten any pictures of me holding Bryan. The
times I held him only Erik and I were in the room and all the pictures
taken that day were taken by other family members. Erik and I were
in such shock and were trying to figure out what was happening. I
don't think we realized Bryan wasn't going home with us until the day we
left the hospital. Some days I wish I could go back and do things
differently, but having never been through something like this before, I
didn't know what I'd want later. I am glad the nurses at the
hospital gave me a lock of his hair and took a picture of his precious
face. I often wonder what he'd look like today and what he'd be
Scroll down for Headstone Inscription.
DEC. 31, 1996
SON OF ERIK & JULIE
LET THE LITTLE CHILDREN COME TO ME
AND DO NOT HINDER THEM; FOR THE KINGDOM
OF GOD BELONGS TO SUCH AS THESE.
AND HE TOOK THE CHILDREN IN HIS ARMS,
PUT HIS HANDS ON THEM AND BLESSED THEM.
I try to make
him a new arrangement every year. It helps me feel like I am doing
something for Bryan although I know it's more for me than for him.